TODAY

I'M SOTIRED OFFEELING LIKE THIS.  IT'SFUNNY, IN MY A.A.WORK ILEARNED THIS TOO SHALL PASS, YET HERE I AM (5) FREEKIN YRS LATER AND I STILL HAVE MAYBE ONE GOOD 1/2 A DAY A WEEK AND THE REST ARE AN EXHAUSTING STRUGGLE TO DO ANYTHING.   I THINK IF I COULD JUST GET ON THE RIGHT MEDS AND THE RIGHT AMOUNT OF MEDS I COULD HAVE A FEW GOOD DAYS A WEEK.   FINDING A DOCTOR TO WORK WITH IS BECOMING HARDER AND HARDER AS THEY ARE ALL SPOOKED BY THE IGNORANT WATCHDOGS.  UNDERSTANDING IT ALL CHANGES NOTHING FOR ME.  I AM STILLIN PAIN THAT IS IMMOBILIZING. JUST SITTING HERE MAKING THIS MY THERAPY IS PAIN PRODUCING.  WHO DO WE KNOW WHO HAS ATHERAPY TO HELP THEM THAT ACTUALLY MAKES THEMWORSE WHILE DOING IT?? SO, I   AM TIRED.  DEPRESSION IS THE  NEXT FEELING.