Day 3
Didn't sleep as well as yesterday. Woke sweaty a few times. This morning a little nauseous but not like yesterday. Still sweaty.
One thing that happened last night was the phone rang about 845. Nothing important...my neighbor wanting to share a movie. Usually I would have been already passed out, or knew I was too drunk to answer the phone or I'd answer thinking I was sober enough still to answer the phone. This time I was not passed out and I didn't have to think before I answered the phone if I was sober enough to answer. I just answered it because I wanted to. That was a really nice thing.
Rewarded myself yesterday with a nice walk with the dogs and a bath.
Goals for today are pretty much the same as yesterday: I want to make sure I eat well again. Yesterday I ate all three meals plus snacks in between. Drinking water was really helpful. I wish I had done that the first day. Take my breaks and lunch. I also took a real sugary drink with me to work and one of those b vitamin sports drinks, Revive. I think those helped in the afternoon.
Again my biggest challenge will be not going to the liquor store after work. I was thinking of maybe giving myself a task after work...like there's some things I need from the home improvement store or to stop and pick up this or that household item....instead of my task being to pick up a fifth...I could replace it with something else.
My other thought is it might be too early for that for me. What I did yesterday worked which was I will turn here and here and I will go straight home...no diversions from this set path. I fear going off that set path home that I might be tempted to swing the next block over to the liquor store. I'll see how the day goes.
I want to remind myself how much I want this. This isn't a I think I want to quit drinking. It's not maybe I want to try it. I'll do it for a week, etc... I really want this for myself.
Yesterday I ran out of time and wasn't able to find the tonglen audio book. Should have time this morning.
One thing that happened last night was the phone rang about 845. Nothing important...my neighbor wanting to share a movie. Usually I would have been already passed out, or knew I was too drunk to answer the phone or I'd answer thinking I was sober enough still to answer the phone. This time I was not passed out and I didn't have to think before I answered the phone if I was sober enough to answer. I just answered it because I wanted to. That was a really nice thing.
Rewarded myself yesterday with a nice walk with the dogs and a bath.
Goals for today are pretty much the same as yesterday: I want to make sure I eat well again. Yesterday I ate all three meals plus snacks in between. Drinking water was really helpful. I wish I had done that the first day. Take my breaks and lunch. I also took a real sugary drink with me to work and one of those b vitamin sports drinks, Revive. I think those helped in the afternoon.
Again my biggest challenge will be not going to the liquor store after work. I was thinking of maybe giving myself a task after work...like there's some things I need from the home improvement store or to stop and pick up this or that household item....instead of my task being to pick up a fifth...I could replace it with something else.
My other thought is it might be too early for that for me. What I did yesterday worked which was I will turn here and here and I will go straight home...no diversions from this set path. I fear going off that set path home that I might be tempted to swing the next block over to the liquor store. I'll see how the day goes.
I want to remind myself how much I want this. This isn't a I think I want to quit drinking. It's not maybe I want to try it. I'll do it for a week, etc... I really want this for myself.
Yesterday I ran out of time and wasn't able to find the tonglen audio book. Should have time this morning.
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