I feel like i am going through life as a complete fake. To everyone i am normal and happy, inside i am a messed up excuse of a human being. If people knew my thoughts they would run and hide. This makes me realise that no one truly likes me as no one truly knows me. Today my boss made me lunch and i sat and ate it with some of the regulars, i then went into the toilets, threw up, came back up and carried on joking and laughing with everyone as if i wasnt dying on the inside. I hate myself and everyone else would if they knew the truth.