General update

I am so tired of men who just use women. I met a guy online. Seemed to be fine. Took me out for a steak and lobster dinner. He came visit me at my place a few times. We would talk or text on the phone. All over the span of a couple of weeks. Then just like that, he stopped answering my text without any explanation. And I really thought he liked me. We did not sleep together, thank God. This is the second time this crap happens to me. What is wrong with me? I am so afraid to let my feelings go or to feel for someone because of this very thing. I'm a good person. Honest, caring, compassionate. I just don't get it. I see all these other women around me getting men and getting engaged and it just makes me want to cry my eyes out until there are no more tears. I just get that much more depressed and feel like not even living anymore. Sometimes I feel like God just wants me to go old and lonely. Alone for the rest of my life.