I am so tired of waiting for my divorce. I have thought of getting a different lawyer from a different agency. But that would mean going through the application process all over again. Starting from the beginning and waiting, waiting, and more waiting. Telling my story all over again and waiting, once again, to go to court. That thought just turns my stomach. I've had some people tell me their divorce through Legal Aide only took a few months. It's been 13 months since I've been separated from hubby and 7, almost 8, months since I've applied for the divorce. He's still in Louisiana, but thank God, he's not bothering me. And I've been so busy working. My partner that works with me is out the whole week due to a sprained wrist. That leaves me alone to clean two big buildings alone, plus the one smaller bank I clean alone. But I've had help for two nights now. Last night, I was alone and I am still tired from it today. I can't update my goal of divorce because I have no clue as to when it will actually happen. Maybe I should just change my goal. Apparently I can't reach this one for now. And I'm just making myself sick worrying about it. I just feel stuck in Limbo. Can't move on with my life. So all I do is work, come home, try to rest, maybe make one AA meeting a week. And one meeting is not enough for me. I don't feel the urge to drink, but the insanity is coming back. I so need to get some balance in my life.