I don't like what I'm feeling right now. My brother just came home from working offshore and he stopped while I was walking Rocky. I told him what had been going on. Well, he's telling me that I have a right to stay in my house, since my husband is the one who left me. He says I could charge him with abandonment. I've heard this from several people since Feb., when Matt left for PA. Anyway, Matt is planning on coming down Labor Day weekend, and I'm frantically trying to move out before he gets to town. I'm afraid of him and even if I were to change the locks on the doors, I'm afraid he'd break a window to get into the house. My brother told me to stand up and fight for my house. He went on to explain that I've never fought for anything in my life before, but I should fight for my house, so I'd have my own home. My own place to live. I'm afraid. Matt has a tendency to get violent and has said he'd kill if he had to. I tried looking up and reading about community property laws for Louisiana. My appointment with Legal Aid is not until Aug. 14. I'm already jumping out of my skin, just being in the house. What if he does show up early like someone said he'd probably do. Just to surprise me. He always likes to have the upper hand where I'm concerned. I think he enjoys it when he sees me afraid of him. He's said in his last e-mail to me that neither me or the mortgage company is getting HIS house. That house is community property. But I don't know if it's worth fighting for. It would be too much upkeep on it, because it is an old house. I don't make enough money to do repairs. I hate myself at times because I let other sway my thinking like the wind. I have a problem being decisive. I hate that about myself. Besides, I think the house has too many old, bad memories for me. I do believe it's time to move on. I may never get a house of my own again, but then again, who knows? I'm too jumpy right now. I just heard a noise that is probably just traffic, but I can't live like this. Anybody got any feedback? Anyone ever in a similar situation that has some good advice? Please help. and please say a prayer for me. Lord knows I pray every spare moment.