I called to cancel my old cell phone. I got a new one so I'm cancelling the other one. I haven't talked to Matt since Monday. But all of a sudden, I get a call at 9:00 p.m. tonight, but the caller id reads "withheld". I find that kind of strange. I have a weird feeling it might have been Matt. I get so freaked out because knowing how bad his temper is at times, that he might try something crazy. Which is all the more reason why I have to free myself from him. I had already tried to get a restraining order on him after he left in Feb., but the judge turned it down. He said since he is so far away in another state, he didn't see there was any danger. Dumbass! I think I should apply for housing because it started raining this evening and I could hear rain falling on the attic insulation in my bedroom. There is one spot where a couple of ceiling tiles are missing. And hubby never bothered to fix it. Along with a whole list of other things that need repair. But he had excuses for those too. He says he misses HIS house. Yea! Right! Whenever we were on the phone, he always told me how he missed the house and the dog and me. I was always last on the list of the things he loved and missed. That started to sink into my brain as to how important I am to him. Whoever reads my journal entry, please say some prayers for me. I know Matt is in PA and I'm in LA, but I can't help but worry if he won't just show up one day, just to scare me. He is really out there.