Another weekend gone.  Worked last night.  Had a good night - wasn't super busy so I got to take advantage to chat with some of my regulars.   I was tired - it was really hot yesterday and brutal in that kitchen.  Everyone was pretty somber because of the heat.  Usually we goof off and have fun when I work at the restaurant - but it was humid and 90 degrees and those poor guys were working all day and all night in that hot kitchen.  If I had to sit there for 10 hours a day in that heat - I'm sure I would have been VERY cranky.  They were just quiet hehe. I have to say that I had no plans whatsoever for my birthday - and would have never expected to be doing what I did for my birthday.  The last 4-5 years have been a blur when it comes to birthdays.  Just another day...insignificant, another year older.  And yes, I'm another year older, but it was so nice to be "acknowledged" - to feel good....I have to say I'm starting to "feel" again.  Meaning, a part of me has been dead for so long....the part that use to look forward to doing things, etc.  To feel....as simple as it sounds....happy.  The fact that a person can do that - a person who actually cares about you as a person....it really wows me.....No...I'm not falling in love - relax lol....all I'm saying is it's nice to have someone appreciate you.  To think of you as "worthy" of their time.   It's a nice feeling.  Haven't felt that way in a very long time.  I definitely enjoy the time we get to spend together.  He called me up today after he got back from the Scouts outing.  I was working doing my openhouse and showings, etc.   He left a message  - called him back.  Talked about what happened with our weekends.  Talked about meeting tomorrow for the appt. in the morning and how it's suppose to rain tomorrow :)  LOL  Yahoo!!!  I purposely left my calendar open for tomorrow in hope of rain.  So - that means we should hopefully be done by 11 a.m. and then we'll have til 2 p.m. before the kids get home from school.   This is the last week of school, so I definitely want to take advantage of flexible schedules before the kids get out.  I know it's silly, but I find myself smiling "out of no where".  It just feels good to feel good.  I notice my anxiety at times - it's on the rise.  My mind races and my insomnia is starting to kick in.  I'm having a hard time falling asleep lately.  But I have to keep telling myself I need to focus on the hear and now.  One day at at time....Thanks to all of you and your birthday wishes - I love you all!!!  *Group Hug* xoxo :)