Well got some stuff accomplished today - felt good - still have lots to do - but tomorrow's another day! I think in order for me to feel "better" I need to get into a "groove". Easier said than done - but I tried today anyways.

My stbx called me. We've been separated almost 10 months. He called and asked if he could get his mountain bike that's in the garage - and I said fine no problem. Well he gets here and says to me "So what's going on with the divorce? Do you still want one? Do I (meaning himself) still want one?" And I said, well has anything changed? And he said well I'm going to file next month. And my response was - well there's your answer.

I know it needs to be done - I keep complaining my life is in limbo all the way around - yet a part of me feels sad. It's like rehashing this all over again. Like I said, I know it needs to be done - but it's like I'm mourning a part of my life. Honestly, I don't miss him - I'm not walking on eggshells anymore - which is a beautiful thing! I do wish him the best - and hope he finds happiness - and discovers that we weren't happy in our marriage. I think it's finally sinking in, which is a good thing.

Went and dropped my son off at Scouts - and saw you know who hehe Talked about meeting tomorrow to look at a property (he does property management and it's a bank owned property). So we're meeting tomorrow so he can give me a price for the clean out. Left with my daughter and headed home - and finished up my laundry for the night - all clothes AND whites done. Tomorrow - sheets! Suppose to be a nice day - and there's nothing better than sheets that were dried outside! My son got dropped off by "Mr. Mom" LOL - and my son walks in with a bag of asparagus from him. He had mentioned that he had some growing - and asked if I liked it - and said yeeah - but the kids don't....well he sent some to me via my son. So my son hands it to me and says "Mom do you and Mr. P have a crush on each other?" I think it took me a couple minutes to pick my jaw up on the floor! LOL I said what? He laughed and said I'm just kidding mom - but what's up with teh asparagus LOL Told him that we "network" and are in the same "business" so that's why we talk alot - and the asparagus was just being nice because he had some growing. Still, I don't want him having ANY clue whatsoever! His son and my son are buddies - his son' a couple years older - they ride the bus together and do scouts - he's a good kid and a good influence on my son. But I don't want them getting all weirded out LOL Now I feel "awkward". I don't want to mess anything up. He's great with my son at Scouts - on trips, etc. My son speaks really highly of him - it's all a good influence all the way around...Anyways...

I put my asparagus in water LOL - and will enjoy it tomorrow night. I had intentions of doing a beef stirfry tomorrow night over rice - so the asparagus will go great in it! I called and his son answered and told him to tell his dad thanks for the asparagus. I don't want to be a "pain" by calling - but didn't want to be rude for not acknowledging it!

Ok....calling it a day - take care all! xoxo