Back to reality today - and I have no motivation whatsoever. Woke up - got my kids off to school - and I sit here knowing full well I have alot to do today - yet can't get myself moving.
I don't how to start this next phase. I have a void and don't know how to move past it. The only thing that's helping me is that I look outside and the sun is shining - not a cloud in the sky. It's inviting to see that - perhaps it will make it easier for me to venture out of my house.
It's like I'm back to reality within my life. It scares me. It's like a baby taking it's first step. It wants to do it in the worst way - yet so afraid of letting go and taking it for feel of falling. Eventually, it will happen. It's just a matter of finding the courage from within to do it.
I don't how to start this next phase. I have a void and don't know how to move past it. The only thing that's helping me is that I look outside and the sun is shining - not a cloud in the sky. It's inviting to see that - perhaps it will make it easier for me to venture out of my house.
It's like I'm back to reality within my life. It scares me. It's like a baby taking it's first step. It wants to do it in the worst way - yet so afraid of letting go and taking it for feel of falling. Eventually, it will happen. It's just a matter of finding the courage from within to do it.
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I got my kid up and off to school and I\'m at work and feel like my arms have weights on them.
Reality - what is it other than the everyday mundane existence we all live. You\'re not alone. Rita
Im sorry Lisa.......I wish I could pull you through and fill your void. I think you know what it is and what you have to do. But it\'s no fun, and it\'s not easy. You are very confused and frustrated about things. I guess time will clear things up. If theres anything I can do to help you through this, I\'m very willing. Maybe I can drive out there and be your new lover? OK IM getting in the car. See you soon. I will never hurt you. LOL