Ok....feeling like total psycho woman today. I lost it today, on so many levels. Work, personal life....I can't lose these 2 deals. I mean I'm suppose to close on 3 deals this month. That's suppose to carry more for a while, and I'm banking on it, and it's crumbling, and if it breaks, I'm screwed. Yes, I was upset with D. because he wasn't able to console me. BUT, in all fairness to him, he's suffering from severe depression, how fair is it to him that I dump on him, when he was feeling ill yesterday and not feeling that great today. I don't know....some people are more compassionate than others. He later sent me an e-mail and expressed his support as to how I was feeling, and what I was going through. He told me how he was feeling, how he was really down, and frustrated, and feeling in limbo, and so many other things. it felt good to see him open up to me, what he was feeling. he surpresses his thoughts, whereas I let them out. I use to always surpress my feelings, but one day I just let it out....i was tired of keeping all of the crap in the hole. i never took care of one piece of "trash" before putting more in until it became full and overflowed. It's like the flood gates just opened up and there's no turning back!

Also, Day 2 of no Prozac. I finally got my period thank God. No, I wasn't concerned about being pregnant, because you need to have sex to get pregnant, so therefore I knew I was good there! lol I think honestly, that this past week was a total week of hell hormonally and emotionally. I was due to have my period on the 14th and didn't get it til today. I think I had the longest run of PMS and severe moodiness I've experienced ever! I knew the meds were making it worse, me worse. I had to stop them, for now. I see my doc on Weds. and will tell him I cut out the meds, and take it from there.

If anyone made it to the end, I hope I killed your insomnia and you can get to sleep now! LOL