39

day 39, almost close my goal, well my goal to give this shit up forever, its a peaceful settling inside that you except defeat. thats what i think is different this time, i got punched over and over and my usual get up and give them hell attitude kept me going back to make things right, with money/ego/control. im ok to let it down, and stop the bleeding now, i will never recoup my losses, and i will never be able to enjoy gambling ever again.