Home again
Sorry that I didn't tell any one that we would be away. We saw an ad in the local newspaper for rental of a time share in Orlando FL, impulsively called, made the arrangements and just got back. I felt good being away from here and all of the sadness I feel in this home and this town. All the memories in this house, I feel worse than before if that is possible. I know that I need to get myself under control so I can at least function again. So, I am seeing another pastor tomorrow for lunch (female pastor in near by church - my husband is a retired pastor working part time) just because I need to talk this out. I know that there are so many wonderful people on here and I'm back. I do want to participate and learn more since I know there has to be so much more experience and knowledge from all of you. Anyway, I intend to fully participate. God bless all of you. We each travel our own path but we have so much pain and hurt in common. All we can do is pray and try to help one another.
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Where did you stay in Orlando? I used to own timeshare; just got done with it. I\'ll miss the beautiful condos and resorts, but not owning.
It\'s good to get away. Very healing.
How did it go with the pastor? Don\'t feel bad if it didn\'t go well. People don\'t always understand if they haven\'t gone through it. Hope she was a good listener. That\'s what we all need.
Thank you so much for your comments. Helped more than I can tell you. It\'s been so depressing being back again. We rented at Orange Lake.
Glad you told me about pastors not understanding. I felt worse after I talked to her. She really didn\'t understand although she did listen and tried to help. She is young and I don\'t think she has any experience with estrangement. She told me things like \"turn the other cheek\" \"Trust in the Lord\" and \"Forgive\" As we all know it\'s so much more involved than that. I pray and read my Bible daily and put all of this into God\'s hands every day. Every day it hurts so I feel that I need to do those things every day. Just wish I could totally turn it over to God and totally let go but I guess that will come at some point. Just too raw now.