vent

Another night of little sleep due to me GF and her damn dog.  She has been up since Tuesday on an aderal binge and now she has hurt her back.  I'm going to lose another day at work taking her to the damn doctor because her back wouldn't be hurt if she just slept.  I am so sick of this shit.  Up stairs right now she is talking her self and banging all over the place, it is 4 in the fucking morning and I have to leave for work in and hour and 15 minutes.  I will have to go to work, deal with the crap there and find time to call the doctor then leave work to come take her to a doctor in a car that barely runs.  It is hard enough for me to gt to sleep with my own neck and shoulder pain and leg pain.  I kindly said she needs to sleep on Saturday and she replied that asking her to go to sleep is only going to make her stay awake.  I am so sick of this shit.  If I show anger she says I am abusive and cries PTSD issues, but if I am gentle she replies with shit like I can't control her.  After the holidays I need to end this relationship.  I can't keep putting my own life in a toilet for someone who is hell bent on self destruction.