Today I am very emotional. Today was my due date and all I can think about is  if I had not lost my baby I would be preparing to bring home a beautiful enfant to love for the rest of my life.  Im trying to stay positive, but I feel so raw today, like all those feelings I thought were gone have come back stronger then ever.  to make matters worse i go tmy period last week and it reminded me of the day I miscarried and I started to feel this huge lump in my throat. I know that time will heal all the pain, but today my heart hurts more then ever.  Im hopeing that as the day continues ill feel better, and  Im going to try and do things to heep my spirits up.