Well its been so long since I've written in here. Alot has been happening  in my life lately and as confusing as some of it has been, its kind of nice to get back to normal.  I find myself healing more and more with each passing week, and I feel like each day brings more perspective for me.  Some days my heart hurts like my miscarriage just happend and other days its as if it never happened.  Im not really sure If I will ever be the same person I was before this happened, but I do know that I have to keep living  and dreaming and believing in good things, because anything else would be a waste of my life.  I havent figured everything out yet, but something way down deep inside of me, is telling me that my complete healing and days full of more happiness then I can imagine, is just around the cornor. Ijust have to believe I'll get there.