Today is a BAD day. I'm tired of holding it all together, I'm tired of being so strong all the time. I have all of these responsibliites and all of these expectations, and they all seem too overwhelming right now. I understand that life is about balance and sometimes you have to do things that are hard, but there is only so much a person can take before they breakdown. Right now i'm suppose to be setting up a meetings to handle the long absence I had from school due to my miscarriage and health problems, but I'm still an emotional wreck and the thought of having to explain all of this to a stranger sends me into a panic. On top of all that my mother is very ill and had to take a leave of absence from work, my grandmother is dealing with heart and lung problems and writing which is my passion seems harder and harder these days. I love writing its what I want to do in life, be a writer and start my own publication, and these days I can't write to sentences. My head is full of so many thoughts its like im drowning in them. I just need a break.