fear

I feel like a child sometimes, sleeping is so difficult, I have irrational fear I know he isn't going to come after me but.... I think what if he figures out where I live and trys to bang down my door. The first time after I left that I tried to sleep in the dark I nearly had a panic attack... I feel so silly.... I am adult I shouldn't be feeling this way...... why did he treat me like I meant nothing to him....