Day 7

Well, this week so far has started out pretty cruddy.  First my sleeping schedule gets thrown off, then to top it off last night I wasn't even able to fall asleep.  I ended up deciding to just stay awake until I go to bed at a normal time, like 10 pm.  Is there a way to put negative progress on a goal?  Because I feel like i'm going backwards.  I'm having a hard time trying to figure out if this is another round of depression or if I'm having a mental breakdown.  Either way I've gone through it before and know I can't do anything without the support of someone else here with me.  The internet is a terrible place to try and find friends.
Usually when I try to sleep I think about something that happened or something that may happen.  Last night dragged out so long that I ended up telling myself to stay up.  My head was filled with thoughts that aren't usually there.  Here are some of them.
-What do you think you're doing all day, all alone in your room.  You're just a waist of space.  Can't start school because you don't have a job, and can't get a decent paying job until you go through school.
-Nobody cares about you.  All your old friends have already forgotten you.  remember how fast those friends of yours put you to the side after you switched schools?  That's because no one cares.
-Why do you even try?  It's not like you're getting anywhere with your pathetic life.
Those are just a few things I could remember from last night.  I'm nodding off so i'm gong to bed early tonight.  Hopefully it doesn't happen again.