Day 1
Today has been much like every other day for the past couple weeks. Laying in bed, reflecting on how my life has changed since I graduated high school. I lost all my friends, I quit my job (For very understandable reasons), I haven't started college yet, I've never had a boyfriend (Which some people say is really lucky but I think is the opposite), and every day I get more and more lonely. My best friend of 10 years as of last July has blocked me on Facebook and doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I still chat with some people on Facebook but most of them seem like strangers now even though I went to the same school with most of them.
Every time I look out my window I feel like I could be out there making something of myself but i'm just sitting here with nothing more to do than scroll through Facebook laying in bed and only getting up to use the bathroom or grab something to eat. I have been depressed before, and I know what it feels like, and this is not it. I know i'm lonely and have no one to talk to and I know what I need to do to get myself out of the rut. It's getting myself to do it is the only thing blocking my path.
Every time I look out my window I feel like I could be out there making something of myself but i'm just sitting here with nothing more to do than scroll through Facebook laying in bed and only getting up to use the bathroom or grab something to eat. I have been depressed before, and I know what it feels like, and this is not it. I know i'm lonely and have no one to talk to and I know what I need to do to get myself out of the rut. It's getting myself to do it is the only thing blocking my path.
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It sounds like you have ambition fighting to get out. Why don\'t you let it? Think about the things you love to do and work on them. That will help guide you in the right direction. If you like we can be friends and I will talk with you. :) I am here most days and have been around this sight for a long while. You are rightfully confused at this time in your life so don\'t be so hard on yourself.
As you get older friends become a little bit more scattered unfortunately. And it is sometimes really scary to make friends at bars. Have you tried a website called Meetup.com?
I\'ve lost my drive and reason for wanting to pursue anything I want. I\'ve been looking for a job for the past couple of months but nothing seems to want to work in my favor. I know what I want to do with the rest or my life, getting there is the tricky part because i\'m going to be in school for a while and i\'m going to need to have the money to go, I know I can\'t rely on Financial Aid for everything once I go through Community College it\'s going to be a lot more expensive. I have not even heard of Meetup.com I can look at it but i\'m not completely into the whole meeting people online thing because that to me is more scary than going to a bar or something of which I cannot do cause i\'m only just turning 19 next Wednesday.