feeling down
I am at the beach with my boyfriends family this week. Everything has been going well until today. My boyfriend went golfing today which is great however I stayed at the house and it was raining so there wasn't anything for me to do. On top of that the rest of the family went shopping except 2 of the boys so I was basically alone. I am sunburnt and starting my period soon so I feel less that pretty. For some reason I just cannot relax and it is really getting to me. I am home sick too. The rest of the family are out on the porch drinking and having fun but I cannot relax. I can drink too but I am nervous that because I feel anxious if I drink and I start to feel better that I will become dependent on it. I want to be somewhere other than my reality. It is crazy how you can feel more alone in a room full of people than when you are by yourself.
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That\'s not crazy at all.
I understand what it\'s like to be afraid to \"need\" a drink. I have many addicts in my family and I\'m always a little bit afraid that I\'m genetically predisposed so I usually stay well away. You don\'t have to have an alcoholic drink to sit next to people and talk to them though.
When I do drink, I usually confine myself to red wine. I like it but only a bit so I don\'t drink very much. Most people have learned to give me just a splash so that it doesn\'t get wasted. I used to worry about what they would think of me if I asked for that but nobody really cares so I ended up making more of a big deal over it than anyone else did.
I hope you were able to enjoy some of your time at the beach.