Just a quick update, my son was hospitalized again today.  They were suggesting theraputic foster care because they did not think they had enough to hospitalize him.  Thank God for my advocate she reminded me what to say like to remind them to take a look at the last 30 days, also that we just found out after his blood test last week that the medication is not at a theraputic level.  Although the doctor told the nurse he did not want to raise it Go figure.  I dont know about anywhere else but the mental health system here sucks. Thank you all for checking in on me and sending me hug I really appreciate it.  I am pretty much at my lowest with everything going on.  I am trying to get back on track but feel like this burden is holding me down. I hope you all are doing well and to my dear dear friends here please know that even though I have not written lately I do think of you all almost daily.  Please forgive my self absorbtion I will try to be a better friend starting tomorrow.  Tonight I just need to rest.