Well the visit with my son SUCKED. THE SPERM DONOR NEVER CALLED TO SAY HE WAS NOT SHOWING UP. My son of course took it out on me even one of his roomates said he was being rude. He was throwing a fit. He got up and walked away after me not even being there for five minutes. I am so hurt As I wrote earlier my sister did you down to see my niece and we went out to eat So I am sitting there trying to hold back the tears for my nieces sake. I feel like such a failure. I understand that I am the closet one to him and that I am the one that gets the brunt of everything. But I would just like to feel the love. Knowing it does not help. I want to feel it. He does not even care that he hurt my feelings. I drove over 30 minutes to see him and he does not even care. Hopefully tomorrow's visit will be better.
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