well believe it or not I dont have much to say today.  I found out from today that his dad called the hospital and said he is going down to visit son. I hope it goes well for my son's case.  The thing is his dad is such a charmer and blames me for everything.  After the blow up I had on him yesterday I am sure he will find some way to be vindictive.  I am still not feeling well a bit depressed.  I just want to sleep but have to much to do.  I just dont know where to start.I have been sleeping on my couch because I just dont want to go upstairs where our bedrooms are.  I have to force myself to go up there and take a shower.  I know ridiculous.