Once again its been a while since i have written...... Gosh my life has been great lately..... i don't remember being content in a loooooong time...... the zoloft is working great..... (150 mg) ....... guess alex really did turn out to be more of a burden in my life...... i feel so different without him....... so free to do what i want to do and wear what i want to wear and talk to who i want........ i'm a good girl........... and trustworthy, but i always felt that i was always doing something wrong when i was with him...... i'm moving to fort myers sometime in the next 2 weeks!! i'm really excited to get out of ocala..... it's no good for me here....... soooooo boring.... not for a 22 year old life style!!! going back to school in january!! i already signed up in fort myers!! i'm excited about that as well...... going through all this anxiety has really showed me ALOT about life........ i guess in a way it has been a blessing.... ALLLLLLL the bullshit i have been through with this and all the things i have missed out on and people......... but like i said this has made me grow ALOT as a person....... i guess it's easy for me to say because i feel so much better...... but those who are still having alot of trouble i know EXACTLY how you feel!!! my suggestions would be this.....-get on med's.... if you don't like to do the med thing then research online natural herbs and vitamins that you can take.- take a benzo. like a xanax or klonopin, it will help u get through your days easier- get self help books-practice your breathing in through your nose and SLOWLY out through your mouth with your lips puckered- the most important thing i can say is DO NOT GIVE UP!!! FACE YOUR FEARS A LITTLE AT A TIME!! IF YOU CAN'T DRIVE GET IN YOUR CAR AND DRIVE A BLOCK....... DO THINGS SLOWLY, AS SCARED AS YOU MAY BE DO IT LITTLE BY LITTLE!!! YOU WILL BE PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR THE ACCOMPLISHMENT. YES YOU WILL FEEL THE ANXIETY INTENSLY BUT IT'S A GREAT OPPUTURTUNITY TO BE BY YOURSELF AND PRACTICE YOUR BREATHING, RELAXATION AND POSITIVE ATTITUDE.AT ONE POINT IT WAS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET IN THE CAR AND EVEN DRIVE A BLOCK TO GO TO WALGREENS. A FEW WEEKS AGO I DROVE BY MYSELF 3 1/2 HOURS SOUTH TO VISIT MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS SOOOOOOO HAPPY AND PROUD OF MYSELF..... BUT IT WAS BABY STEPS I HAD TO TAKE TO GET WHERE I AM NOW......IF ANYONE NEEDS ANY ADVICE OR HELP I AM HERE!!!! PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS... I GUARANTEE I HAVE BEEN IN THE SAME SITUATION AS MOST OF YOU!!!!!! GOOD LUCK ALLL~~~~
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Glad to see your back here again!