Quick update for everyone... i'm feeling much better.... i've realized that all this happened for a reason... i guess it all happened for the best.... i get sad sometimes but then i think of what an asshole he is and the sadness turns to anger... which for me is easier to deal with than being sad....... but i'm back with my parents probably going to redesign my room this weekend.... maybe paint and get a bedroom set... who knows... thanks for all your support!! you guys have really helped me through a really tough time... it's very much appreciated!!