I'm feeling a bit better today. Never thought i would join a community like this and actually feel like people care. Also it's all people that can RELATE TO ME!! it's so exciting to find people that are going through the same thing!! i've been looking for a site like this for about 4 months now and i happened to stumble upon this one... i still can't believe how supportive people are!!! :) it's very shocking.... I'm really happy to have all these people to talk to.... i also never thought that writing in a journal like this would help either but it totally does!!!! I'm feeling better about things.. alot of people have helped me realize that i am a MUCH better person than how he makes me feel... I just really want someone who is going to cherish me and make me feel beautiful like a princess.... not spoil me with things!!!! but spoil me with love~ Sounds corny but it's the truth!! anxiety still bad... no panic attacks though thank God... I'll be praying for everyone!! :)