It's been a really bad couple of days.... make a LOOOOONG story short i moved up here to ocala from miami and had to eave my boyfriend... he finally moved up here about 2 weeks ago and i can tell that there has been a distance between us!! we have been dating for 5 1/2 years!! This is making my anxiety HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean real bad!!! :( :( :( i just don't know what to do anymore... i live in this town alone with only my parents no good friends or anything... can't move because i am starting a business with my mom... people say i am choosing money over "love and happiness".... because supposedly if i move down south my boyfriend would LOVE to get a place with me!! i don't fucking know i'm so confused and lonely and depressed with this shit!!! i am just ready to go off the deepend!!! i have not met ANYONE hear!! it's all old people hear... and i'm not a country girl and that is all it is here!! i'm just so frustrated i don't know what to do... i can't focus at work... yeah see i'm at work now and look what i'm doing!??!?!? all i think about is alex and what he is doing to me!! i'm hurting so bad!! this is just the worst feeling ever.... my anxiety has never been this bad.. i don't know which is worse the anxiety or depression!! no panic attacks yet thank God!