I\"m back!

Well we had a good time in Arizona, went tubing down the salt river, my son loved it, i did too. It was good to get away for a few days. We are back home and back to reality. I'm just getting things done around the house this weekend. I feel alright, but our first day back was lonely just me and my son again, it was good to be around people. Even though my sister gets on my nerves my nephews loved us being there and i did not feel isolated and alone like i do at home. I am trying to deal with the lack of interaction with people, one thing i'm trying to self improve on, but a lot of times it gives me anxiety that sticks all day. Today i dont feel the anxiety yet, I'm hoping it doesn't come. I think i'm improving a little, but i feel empty a lot of the time. Is it just the disorder? or is it real? thats the question i can't answer. I know its good to be alone sometimes, but days on end i'm not sure if anyone would not feel it. I am open to any feedback on this, if anyone has the same kind of feeling. I'm changing my goal today. I hope all my friends are doing good this weekend, i miss you all, talk soon!