I detoxed again this weekend.  The 7th was another first day for me.  Now it will be the anniversary of my niece's Dad who died early yesterday.  I'm sure he was drinking and driving.  99% of my family lives in Minnesota.  I moved there 5 years ago briefly.  I came back here in Calif. 4 years ago.  I needed help getting back on my feet and landed a job after 6 days of being in MN and I also had SOME money.  It was getting too hard for me to land a new job in CA and I moved in a panic as my money was dwindling to rent.So I moved and rented a room from my sister's ex-husband and my niece.  This was purely financial.  He needed a roommate and I needed cheap rent.  My sister suggested this arrangement and was more than for it.Living with him was pure hell.  He is a scary alcoholic, though I doubt he would admit to being one.  The place was a hell hole.My sister is a cocaine addict and bi-polar and is a CONSTANT drama queen.  I am not exaggerating.  She caused so much drama I couldn't take it and moved back to Calif on bad terms with her and bad terms with him.She and I haven't spoken since.  I was there 1yr and 2 months and I was able to save $13k and I moved back to CA.Her ex-husband died in a horrible car accident Sat. March 7 ..just yesterday.  My niece is 16 years.  Just a horrible situation even though he was not my favorite person his death is shocking and sad.My sister called me today:Her:  It's your sisterMe:  Oh Gina I am so sorry.Her: Oh are you really now?Me:  Yes, It's horribleHer:  I seriously doubt that being as you hate me and my kids.  This will probably be the last time I ever talk to you again...I hung up on her.  I am so sick and tired of her drama.  I gave her so much money while in MN it's not funny.  I've seen her write a bad check for cocaine.  I gave her money left and right.  I  always had a soft spot for her and she knows it.  She would even call me a stupid, generous drunk.  Every time she would say she would pay me back she rarely did.Too much drama.  That's all she is a broke drama queen.  I can't take it.So she has been on this trip for YEARS that I HATE her.  I mean like 20+ years, it's ridiculous. I love her but she's warped.  We are black and white in so many ways, but we can also have the best laughs and fun together.I don't know what to do.Suppose I'll write her a letter and apologize for hanging up on her but I can't handle the way she talks to me.  I don't know.  Guess I'll pray on it.She is so mean to me.  Says the most hateful things.  It really, really hurts and infuriates me at the same time.