Today is day 12 and I am not obsessing.  I went on an interview today at a staffing agency and it went really good.  The gal has a direct hire deal for me on Tuesday.  It's a bit further than I really care to go but at this point I certainly am not going to be picky.  Especially since it will be $7 more an hour than what I have been making the past three years.    I mentioned this company - Cisco - that I really want to work at and I had applied with them thru their website that was listed thru a website better than Monster or HotJobs.  She told me she has two very good contacts there and recently placed a gal there who only had 2 years experience.  I have over 15 years experience.  If she can pull some strings and I get that position I will be making $20k MORE a year than what I was making before.  It would be the first time in my life I would be making some serious money.  Actually,  I would just be happy to get my baby toe thru that door.  She gets 10% of what I make so I'm sure she'll work on getting that fat baby toe of mine thru that door.  Sweeeeet!!!!  But that just all sounds too good to be true and I'm getting that insecure, am I worth it, feeling.  We shall see.  When I was driving back home and feeling pretty darned happy I had thoughts of "celebrating" with a few cold ones.  I immediately told myself, yeah, celebrate alright.  You're going to celebrate by being sober and didn't think much of it after that.  Funny how quickly those drinking thoughts come.  Now I am learning to just as quickly squelsh them.  So all is good.  Now if only my sleeping pattern would get back on track and the pricklies would stop.  But I guess I'm getting greedy.  In due time.ItsMyLife is my hero right now.  I am so proud of her and to quit smoking on top of it all.She is truly my hero on earth.  God is so good and I am so unworthy.  Only by the Grace of God, indeed.