I wanted to change my "face" to a smiley, and I almost did,  but it would not have been honest.  It would've been just to make other people happy.  That's not such a bad thing, to fake being happy for others,,,,it's just not something I can do for myself right now.I was very productive today and that makes me feel good.  I look forward to a good night's sleep-which I hope I will get.  If not....oh well.....I am hoping that my one, solid week of praying for Jollyk ( Kim) brings some benefit(s).  I know many alcoholics and a few drug addicts that have this whole array of friends yet I only have 2 friends and one moved out of state to Washington a year ago and the other one I am going to have to say goodbye to after 7 years.  So I am sad and weak.But I was productive today and expect to be productive tomorrow.  At home and work.I am also grateful I have this new job that I can wake up in the mornings to and concentrate on other things than myself.