...such beautiful weather with spring coming out...why must I be unemployed, yet again, same as I was, 3 years ago...almost to the day...?

Strain at home, trying to keep everyone's needs happy...I can't think what else to do...everything else is in such a mess...I wouldn't mind being old, if I just had better ideas that resulted in something positive! As it is, I just feel helpless and drained...

No word from the b/f...our orig. plans fell through & I've been waiting to see what he wants/can do, next...haven't told him I'm unemployed, yet...he warned me against leaving my orig. job, even though it was making me more unhealthy than I am, now...he was right about all of the warnings (financial/insurance-wise), of course...I just never told him the rest of the story, as to why I really had to leave...