Just so sorry I haven't beem available, here...I have been experiencing lingering PMS, as well as menopause symptoms...today, I've been so hot inside...I don't prespire much, but I feel like a furnace inside.  I tried taking it easy, but the "heat" seems worse when I sit still...so, I tried to find practical things to do, just to keep moving...dumb, I know.  Plus, if there's ANYTHING w/sugar in it, for about 40 miles, I'm liable to track it down and eat it.  I usu. go through that this time of the year, but somehow the meno/PMS makes it seem worse, this year...I've gained back the 10 lbs. I lost in the last 2 mo., all w/in 6 days...that's pretty bad!Incidentally, we're having a "heat" wave, weatherwise, although these days, I can't really tell the difference...it went from about 45 to 69 in the last two days...weather is really beautiful and sunny, though, so that is great.  Thank God we got our "hour" back, last night...I keep going between exhausted and jittery...there doesn't seem to be a regular rhythm...Mom went to the store, alone, about a week ago...some cute little blonde thing passed her on the way in, as she was leaving, and made a big face/act about how "scared" she was, because she was startled by my Mom's appearance & thought she was "a freak."  Naturally, all the girl's school friends were there, too, & snickering, so my Mom turned around and called her a "brainless bastard," as she left, which just made this jackass act even more startled...My mom was so crippled up from her lupus and DISH...anyone looking at her would realize that she was in pain...why are people so cruel, because someone doesn't resemble the rest of the "herd?"  She was depressed about it, but glad she shot back w/something.  It gave me a lot to think about...none of it too bright, concerning the future...I sure wish to hell I'd have been there...there would have been a lot more "exchanged," than just words.Dad is about as depressed as before, but less to do w/his mother's passing, now.  He is still fighting w/the P.O. about that stupid change-of-address mess, when G.M. moved...now it's affected his widowed sister-in-law, who fired off 2 jerky e-mails to him.  Well, I'm sorry she's still in mourning over my deceased uncle, but that is no reason to be rude!Work is bubbling along, although I am now doing drawings where I have no idea what they're supposed to look like...that, and a deadline that's always "ASAP" have me stressed, there, and I get depressed whenever Mom comments, "Y'know, you never seem to be able to have a normal job."  I joked about it, at first, but as I got to thinking about it, I wonder if I'm to blame, somehow...still, the folks there have still been really nice, although not very practical about how they run the business.  My sis has been working there, pro-bono, for nearly 2 mo., now, and would love to work there, for real, and has really saved everyone's bacon by getting the printers to actually print + trying to figure out how their server works (see, my tutor took care of that, before they got rid of him...had they kept him, they wouldn't be in this spot, right now).Gotta go...take care, all, and God Bless...will write more, later, if I can...