I haven't  written in a while, 'cause nothing's changed in my situation... Mom and I had a heart-to-heart talk Sat. night & I did a little verbal "boil lancing" on my personality...but, I didn't have the heart to cut loose and really go all out and express my rage and frustrations...didn't want my mom to get caught in the flak & she already feels it's her fault that I moved down here & now can't get anything going...DID NOT WANT US TO GO THERE--not at all! So, I didn't...But, I could still feel that frustrating poison going around in my system...I try so hard--and, no, at this point, I don't mind doing a little whining to you all...it's going on nearly 2.5 years, since I worked last, and I'M FRIGHTENED--and NOTHING CHANGES!  I pray/work to help my parents out, here/study new computer skills/apply for ALL kinds of jobs and NOTHING HAPPENS...I just don't know what to do, anymore...Why do things have to be this way?  What is God trying to tell me?  'Cause, having my parents totally supporting me, like I'm back in high school, can't be helping anybody, here!I'd move to a place where the job market is much hotter, but I'm afraid to leave my mom behind, in her current health situation...I know she won't get the focused physical/emotional attention that she really needs from the family...they've made it gently clear that because of her condition, there's "nothing they can really do to help" her....I just feel so lost, frightened and angry, right now, for her, as much as myself...Where is the "Justice of Love?"  I used to think it could solve everything...