update

Bf is back again.  I am actually pretty happy about that.  I don't have to feel pressured anymore to cater to ex's every whim!
I know I need to get out of here but can't until I have the financial means to allow me to do so and as long as I am here, ex doesn't have to pay me alimony so I kinda get to stay for free.   have my own little room at the end of the house, my own internet service and I am happy in my own little world!  
Ex was talking to bf's mom on the phone and a question might have been asked how I get along with everyone and I overheard ex saying that her ex husband is the kindest, most gentle  person she has ever known!  That made me feel pretty good!  So why did she divorce me?  She blamed it on my drug and alcohol addiction (been sober nearly 5 years)  said she never got over it even though alanon and other support methods were offered to her!
I made a mistake!  I picked the wrong way to handle my enormously high stress level from working two jobs to try to make ends meet.  Not going to punish myself more then I already have.  I forgave myself.
Life sucks and then you move on to a better life because u can't really give up and check out of the hotel of life.
Ex would say, life sucks and then u die which is a defeatest attitude which I got rid ofyears ago!

Hugs!

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AFWC
AFWC

Hi friend : ) It is just life after all : ) I think the choices we make here and the way we treat others is how we are going to be remembered and rewarded when we are called back to our eternal home. Keep up the good work! One if my favorite saying.... \"Are you leaving the footprints you want to be leaving?\" It really is a great question to begin and end each day with : ) Prayers being sent your way! XO
dinahmorris
dinahmorris

You sound snug as a bug- nice what she said about you. Good that you can stay sort of friends. Good to take things slowly as you plan your next move. Good Timin\"
xxxxx
JoyceMarilyn
JoyceMarilyn

It seems you are healing and moving on with your new status - single! I loved what she said about you to BF mother...something we all knew. You are a super human being Bob! HUGE HUGS!
deleted_user
deleted_user

Bob, you are doing the best you can with what is happening now. You are getting better, and better. My mouth dropped when you said that the bf is back again and you were relieved. You are a great man! I must say with your new job, I have been missing our chats more. Super Hugs & God Bless You!!
annieheart
annieheart

Sometimes we need to move on.With all the fights your ex and her bf have,it sounds like she might be one of those people hooked on drama..Im glad you are comfortable there.I hope not to comfortable.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey there, my Friend! I learn from you all the time...thanks so much.
You can only be who you are in the now, right?
Good. Then, I got your message via your forthright journal entry.....take care.