Rut

I am in a rut! I think that is what you call it. I have things to do but no motivation or energy so the longer they stay undone, the more depressed I get. I don't have much trouble getting started with work but I do with the walking. If I skip more then 2 days, I always lose something. I won't be able to go as fast, or as far, so I will be back to where I was 3 weeks ago, for example. Thats frustration which turns into procrastination. One of my biggest enjoyments in life is giving hope and encouragement to addicts who try to stay clean and sober, and for everyone else, I try to find them reasons TO try. I find it difficult to encourage myself and I don't know why. Maybe it's just lazyness.  I am going to walk my 2 miles today and get my work done. Notice I didn't say try? That's because I don't want to leave open the possibily of not getting things done! I will keep you posted. Hugs to all of you!