My life

where do I begin?
I used to love to write journals.Then I felt there was no need.Now its too damn depressing..
Work-work is crazy.Business has picked up.I picked up an extra job making copies for a law firm.One hour before work, one hour or so after work.Work on weekends.
Kids-the kids are doing good..easy enough
My grandma is sick.She is in the hospital.Not sure whats wrong with her yet but its quite scary.
I feel so stressed and overwhelmed.Theres so much more going on in my life that I just cant write about.I found myself  drinking alot to take the edge off...I even bought cigarettes after not smoking for over 3 years. ( I would smoke here and there but to actually buy them..UGH)
I love my kids..I love the important people in my life but I hate my life