sad

I am so unhappy I am at my depression part of the breakup.  I cry so much now.  I am more sad now then angry.  I liked angry better.  I wish so much that he could have been different so that my marraige could have been differnt.  I want him to feel as sad as me or even more so.  He screwed up but it seems I am the one that is the sadest.  I don't want to hurt like this.