First Entry

I really need help. Every time I run out of pot I freak out and then the nerve pain starts up. I am about to beg my doctor for Ocycontin because it hurts too much and has been for so long and I am going to freak. I don't know what to do anymore and am scared. I feel stupid for this as I should just have more faith but lately this pain stuff has been getting to me and grinding me down. I don't want to live like this forever. Will it ever get better?