Well, yesterday would have marked week 12.  I was a bit emotional, but I also think that AF should be coming soon.  I was with my 3 month old nephew yesterday as well.  I held him a lot and just thought of how much I do want a baby.  The worse part is that my sister could not even take care of the two children she had when she got pregnant for him.  She smoked thoughout all 3 of her pregnancies and has 3 healthy children.  I am trying not to be judgmental, but its hard when you see things like that happen.   I also got a phone call this morning from my really good friend who just went into labor.  Her due date is tomorrow and we were going to have two kids the same age (she also has a 3 year-old).  While I am happy for her it just really hurt to know that I will not be going into labor on December 28th.  My Christmas baby will never be.