Today would hve been week 11.  When do you stop counting the weeks?  After the due date I wonder if I'll be counting how old my baby would have been?  Although I have tried to keep busy I can't stop thinking about what should have been.  My husband and I went canoing 12 miles down the Farmington River today with out 3 year old.  Although it was a beautiful day, and I had to put forth a lot of physical effort, the baby was always on my mind.  God, I wish I were still pregnant.