Hi Gang,
Please accept my apologies for not answering everyones emails. I totally pray for every one of you every night. I see you all as my extended family. I have been totally swamped with a new school and their expectations, and doing the trial. The trail was Friday and I ask everyone whos out there to pray for me that I win! I worked my ass of preparing for the trial and the judge wouldnt even hear a good many of my witnesses. They are questioning my disability, questioning my grades in school, and they want me to work along with everything. Here again my ex is trying to control my life. His attorney even went as far as to question my sex life, because I am disabled. Theres incredible amount of pain and shame here. It still feels like domestic violence. Hes the one who is wrong and not me. I dont understand how the judge would make this whole thing about my disability.

I am trying so hard to put into action what I have been learning in school. I am believing that I am going to win this thing. They say if you believe it, it becomes yours. The judge is going to let me know via mail. As everyone knows how Satan works, he still brings up the pain. I got in the shower and started screaming at him to get out. Then I decided to sit down and journal and get this all out. My body is in such physical pain I broke down and got a wheelchair. I cant walk without excruciating pain. I totally dont feel like doing anything today.

The next thing I have to go thru is going to court is that my kids have asked not to see their father anymore. So I now have to go battle him with this.