i feel numb...i cant think, i cant sleep, i cant eat...i've been depressed...but not like this, i have no idea what im doing anymore, i walked out of the house and didnt even realize it, i have no idea where i was heading...i feel lost, numb, lifeless, restless...whats happening to me? im so confused, i dont know anything that goes through my mind, i feel like some alien force has taken over my body...i used to be happy, i used to belong, but not anymore, i feel like i cant even talk to anybody anymore- like the people i relied on before arent there anymore- like they dont care...I dont even recognize MYSELF anymore, i look in the mirror, and i see a body...but i dont feel like its mine...