Getting better

I'm starting to cope better. I am even able to have a conversation with my pregnant student and talk about baby things tough I still always walk away feeling just a little empty. Never the less, I feel a lot better, best I have been since  I lost my baby. 
I think it may have something to do with the fact that we are going to try for an IVF (I am trying to avoid even thinking that if DH doesn't get the job he is after this may not be possible as I don't want to have any negative thoughts at all). 
Even this time when I tested, when the BFN came up it didn't send me into depression, I just thought, well its another month that I have to get fit and healthy (I have joined the gym to get fit and loose some weight).
 
so all up, I can see  a light (though small) at the end of the tunnel and I am just hoping that it will turn into a beautiful and blinding ray of sunlight.