Feeling low

I still feel like the days just drag on... there are times that it seems unbearable
I feel that my life is filled with so many meaningless things and the things that really matter are further away than I could ever imagine.
I would trade it all in the blink of an eye, the house, the degrees the trips... all just for my child
 
I just feel pointless, my life feels pointless... and I'm at a loss as to how I can bring back the joy again