Last night
Last night I got thinking how it wold have been my 20th week... we would have found out if she was a little girl like I think she was... we would have got to see her again growing stronger, I would have been so happy....
Instead I spent my time missing her, I had to do an OPK, I had to face trying again, checking our account to see if we would have enough for a frozen transfer in case trying naturally didn't work this month... it was so hard
my husband doesn't get it, when I say I feel sad he says Why? and when I say do you really have to ask me that? he gets all unconfortable, like he doesn't want to talk about it any more... it breaks my heart
I feel like I am the only one who misses my baby, the only one who cares any more. Like for every one else she never existed, never mattered
I want my child back...
Instead I spent my time missing her, I had to do an OPK, I had to face trying again, checking our account to see if we would have enough for a frozen transfer in case trying naturally didn't work this month... it was so hard
my husband doesn't get it, when I say I feel sad he says Why? and when I say do you really have to ask me that? he gets all unconfortable, like he doesn't want to talk about it any more... it breaks my heart
I feel like I am the only one who misses my baby, the only one who cares any more. Like for every one else she never existed, never mattered
I want my child back...
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