thinking....

I'm so tired... today was really tough. I feel so drained...
I had my first counselling session... it was o.k but not great. It left me feeling really tired. I have another in a fortnight, not sure if I will go....
Teaching was also tough, I have to pretend to be o.k and that is so hard... I wish I could have sat in my office all day, maybe thats what I will do tomorrow, just sit there and write....
 
I miss squishy so bad, I feel so sad, its like all the sunshine has gone from the world.
 
when will this end....