Progress

I cut myself again tonight, the first time ive done that in a long, long time. My mother asked me on the phone earlier if everything was alright.  It isn't, but I didn't tell her that.  Im getting closer to actually doing it.  I wanted to do it tonight, but I need to write a few things down first. Say sorry to the parents, my twin brother. Also a few people here. They need to realise that they have nothing to do with me trying to end it for a second time. I know people won't understand, but I can't go on just being, I need a reason and unfortunately, I don't have that anymore  :(