Well, where do we start. I have tried once to end it all and I failed. My twin brother found me looking like death warmed over after an overdose.  I will never forget his face :( It still isn't enough to make me not want to try again though.  I would give anything to go back to that day and be able to fit a lock to my bedroom door, I really would. I'm slowly getting older, moving further away from my friends, metaphorically and physically. I'm single and that doesn't look like changing any time soon. I just want someone to be able to hold me, give me a hug every now and again.  Is that really too much to ask in the world?  :( I have few friends left now that even bother contacting me.  I really do not know how much longer I can go on  :(. I think I've said enough for now.